ChasingSeconds

A paid vacation sounds great They want to offer an escape Not a moment-- To late Cause psycho evolutions got me in its grasp And it's a little unnerving when she catches me in my tracks Saying honey were so glad you're here And I’ll reply yes dear Cause they've got me so desensitized I'm synthesized And its got me so terrified I'm paralyzed And I'm praying everyday I wanna go back, I wanna go back What is a father What is a father What is a father-- Now flashback To a man with cold hands I called him father And he never taught me how to catch And he never took me fishing But he was there So where does that leave me Cause I’m worki

There's an apple I've been wanting to pick But its green I want it at its peak Not an old apple I need it perfect Pluck it from where its secured to the tree And take a bit out of it Wait and watch as the inside quickly browns And grabbing it by its stem Ill twist it between my fingers Held before my eyes it flashes its ruby exterior And then the newly discolored cavity After this I will tell my self with certainty This is only natural

It was so dark. I could barely make my way  in its invisible transparency. Everything black glowed. And then it came: the stabbing light. It wrenched me open and through my chest began to pull my insides. The deepest darkest secrets sizzled in its bright heat. It slit me open further, and I poured from my wound. Weakness brought my legs to a tremble, giving way, and I was suspended against nothing, forced back by light. I oozed like something being purged and I burned as black filth ignited from inside me. I could not scream or whisper one sound. My eyes seared till I saw white nothing. All feeling of pai

I lie awake thinking to myself about you Your arms no longer bind me but they are my prison To once be held by them again Keeps me at bay amongst the beast Denying myself from myself Starving off for you And perchance your return Climbing that tower of doubts and fears Opening each door with your own One of a kind key I've made my locks to fit My knight, my only knight I've tangled myself in your affairs, To make some of my own

Talk to me when I'm in the mood. Disappear when I'm not, you make me sick. Disregard it when I'm stupid. Pay notice to my actions. Comfort me when I push you away. Dont grasp to tight when I reach for you. Hold my hair while I throw up. Dont ask why, I'd say because I'm a woman, but I hate that generalization.

Stark white images Adorned in elegance Clad me in womanhood In the night Whispering sweetly Of wondrous things But all i see Is red